Balance
The Seroquel Squad
It’s been a while since I have posted. I have been calculating, formulating and editing this post in my head for months. On October 13th 2014 I made another suicide attempt. I was very depressed and just wanted the stress of life to stop. So I swallowed a handful of pills. My poor girlfriend thought […]
Lunch makes a world of difference
Feeling much better after lunch. Not all gothy, gloomy, doomy. Sometimes this place amazes me, not like David Blaine amazement. That would be semi-cool. More like WTF amazement. Last week in our weekly staff meeting, a member of the team, who has a leadership sorta role, held up a spreadsheet she had asked me to […]
Tripping over triggers
Everyone has triggers, whether mentally ill or not. As someone who is mentally ill, I am finding it necessary to search for triggers in my life. There are the large obvious ones that my family is well aware of; I hate being left waiting, I have issues with a lot of loud noises at the […]
Responsible but don’t take it personally
I have long thought of myself as a responsible person, with the occasional exception, but that is not uncommon. I have always tried to hold myself personally responsible for my actions. I believe that no matter the catalyst, no matter how your thinking may be skewed, you still own your decisions and any repercussions for […]
Juggling Meds and Moods and Stuff
After having been on one set of meds for about 4 months, my Doc has changed them up. I should mention that this is a new Doc that I will be seeing regularly for at least the next year as part of the recovery program I have joined. He seems to be very caring and warm. […]
BLAH BLAH
Says the vampire to the night as it chases me through the vast, dark fields of my mind. Relentlessly pursuing me, despite my every effort to evade. This vampire does not want blood. It wants my light, my motivation, my being. It will steal my time, my happiness and my soul. If I cannot succeed in my almost futile efforts […]
A Balancing Act
I am told that I need to find balance, that I need to strive to be normal, which by the way is a term I hate, although I do often turn it into the probability drive from the Hitchiker’s Guide to the Galaxy telling me I have reached normality. Of course it is easy for others […]
The Inevitable Madness of Pie 